Have faith.

Easier said than done.  These two words tick me off, depending on how they are said–usually condescendingly, by the way. Another fashion in which it is used is by people who rely on their belief to see them through problems.  I’m not belittling that kind of optimism; I just want to make people aware that it also takes hard work to overcome challenges.  Not just hoping it will “just” go bye-bye.

Have faith.

Is trust a foundation for faith? Or is it vice versa?  How important is having faith?  Is faith supposed to be given blindly?

Have faith.

Yeah, right.  I just don’t have that ability.  I’d like to have faith that mankind is basically good, and not out to screw everyone else over.  I’d like to have faith in a Deity…I have tried…but I can’t believe.  It’s not in me.

Have faith.

In what?  And why? I don’t believe in giving anything up blindly, let alone anything resembling trust.  Call me bitter, but faith and trust both have to be earned, along with respect.  Faith, I want to believe in the simple
goodness of it,  but I find there isn’t much to have faith in.

Love? Ha. Maybe in time, my readers, maybe in time.

Friendship? I have one friend. ONE friend.  And a sociopathic freeloader that comes over now and again to drink up all my vodka and eat all my food.

I keep trying to connect to others and failing.  I just don’t want to mess things up so badly, I come off as desperate or crazy–thus ruining any chances for relationships.

I’m through with “having faith” for those who don’t deserve it.

Eh. Who am I kidding?  I’ll still keep believing in the people who matter most to me. I still find myself holding out a little hope, that with a lot of work, the future will be better. 

Maybe I can yet see the light of faith. Someday.